time to DESTRESS

ahhh, at least a little ♥
sunday, kevin didn't want to do dim sum, so we didn't. we scheduled for 9, then 10, then 10:15, and then finally met up at my house at 11. haha. it was such an unproductive day. the only thing we accomplished was figure out what our team name would be, rofl. and zach couldn't be there! aye. haha. it's cool, though. we had fun, anyways haha. stupid phat kept falling asleep ahaha. so today, we finally turned in our stock market project and i feel like a weight has just been lifted off my shoulders! i feel really great in terms of stress right now. and today's trig test was freaking pie. i finished that shit in 2 seconds. more like 5 minutes but you get the hyperbole. haha.

but on sunday, me and amanda, we went to go watch PARANORMAL ACTIVITY. holy shit. i was so scared right before. it was ughh though. cause the stupid lady didn't let us in -_____-. even though amanda's mom was there to say it was okay for us to watch it, she said we can't go in. so we changed our tickets and waited for jhaimy to come. and when she did, it was a different girl who DIDN'T check IDs -_____- even though jhaimy would've been fine because she is 17 but still. that's whack. i'm still 16 and amanda didn't have her ID on her and it was ugh. we tried to sneak it but once we did, they actually came in and told us we had to leave. it was totally the highlight of their day. lamefucks.

i don't know why but i REALLY want to watch it. i know i'm gonna get shit scared but like..i don't know! it's weird! sometimes, i'll want do something that i usually really hate or like the actual experience terrifies the hell out of me. like going on rollercoasters. i HATE them. but when i was at universal studios with linxi and them, i was like "LINXI LET'S GO ON JURASSIC PARK" and stuff. and noww. "LET'S GO WATCH PARANORMAL ACTIVITY!!" but yeah. i think i'm gonna try to go watch it with cecilia tomorrow at the renaissance. she has free tickets. tehee ♥ hahah. but i'm still really scared. i wish it was a GROUP of us going so afterwards, we won't seem so..alone. or if my brother just took me to watch it, i'd be okay with that, too.

and i don't know why either but..i just know that i always feel this need for male companionship. and it's not me being boy crazy. this goes with my brothers and my cousins, too. i just love hanging out with boys! like i would be totally fine if my brother took me to a movie instead of a guy friend or a girl friend. just cause i like hanging out with my brothers and/or my guy cousins. then i'm always trying to make good friends out of guys cause..i guess that's just me. i need male companionship. maybe it's because i've been hanging out with andrew for the majority of my life and now that he's gone, there's this void? i don't know. i do miss him, though! because i never hung out with my sister as much, it was always me with my brothers. i guess i'm just used to it and i need it in order to feel like myself again...? aye. idk. it's weirdd.

anyways, off to go watch House and eat some MEATBALLSSS, yum ♥