today wasn't a good day. our FBLA membership meeting for american enterprise day went fine but eesh, she totally ripped into me today. I get that I am supposed to be a leader and I should be more responsible than I am right now and that I should take whatever she throws at me and just deal with it. but I can't help it, it doesn't even feel like constructive criticism. she acts too much like a mother sometimes because the stuff that comes out of her mouth feels like scolding--and that, in turn, makes me feel like crap. what can i say? i'm a super sensitive girl! (but i can be tough, too!)
i really don't believe in myself. and it kind of hurts that i don't believe in myself. wow, that sounds so ridiculous.
i had an interview for Syracuse U this week. i felt that it started off badly but it picked up towards the end. my dad was doing something completely and utterly stupid to me while driving me to the SU LA office. yelling at me. jeez, great way to keep me calm and relaxed for my COLLEGE interview! bad parenting skills right there. -________-today is To Write Love On Her Arms day, and i wrote love on only myy arm. haha. as you can tell (:
i'm feeling really shitty right now. going to sleep it away.
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