Don't Trust Me (You)

Maybe I do have trust issues.

See, I can be a gullible person sometimes. Which leads to my fear of being made a fool out of. So, sometimes, I have a difficult time believing someone when they tell me something that either doesn't really matter like what hair product they use or if it's something pretty serious like..one of their family members are in the hospital or something. Of course, it depends on each case and each circumstance.

I can't stress more that when someone fucks up and loses my trust, the face of our friendship may revive but the trust does not. And it sucks because it's not like I choose to not believe a word they say or to not be able to rely on them but I just..can't. There is always a doubt in my mind.

How do I know when people are telling the truth? How can I believe them when it ends up that they keep so much from me? How can I rely on them when they can be such flakes? All of this constant questioning that goes in my head just leads me to be extremely fed up.

I don't always have to be the understandable person.