Emotions

Just a bunch of them running through me all day.

1. Today, in English class, we had to do a quickwrite on our most traumatic experience. I wrote about what happened just recently. And as I was writing it, first I felt the hurt. Then, I felt the anger. I just became more angry and angry as I wrote about what happened. The feeling of resentment, betrayal, and utter shock now resides within me. I don't like it.

2. I am getting anxious for college admission decisions. One week from tomorrow, I will know my future.

3. I don't know what to think. I'm so confused. I'm so hesitant. I'm such a "feeler" (ENFP)!

4. FBLA is driving me nuts. LCABR is still not completed. State is in less than a month. And recently, I discovered that a video of the FBL awarding is on YouTube. There are a bunch of "omg she's so funny" comments about my hyperventilating. I wasn't hyperventilating just 'cause I was nervous, you insensitive douchebags. Honestly, I understand that he's proud of the video, but couldn't he at leastt considered me? -___- Because I keep watching it and reliving it; that, in itself, was a traumatizing event for me.

5. I should've applied for the Byron L. Bates FBLA Scholarship this year. I'm so fucking stupid. I didn't even remember to apply but after learning that I probably could've gotten it, I'm so mad.

6. Linxi might be sleeping over Thursday night. :)) I hope she does! I'm so excited.

7. MCDA tomorroww! :DD

8. I should talk to her. Tell her what's up. I should be the bigger person and just be fair and courteous.

9. My period totally skipped a month. When I told my sister that I was still waiting for it, she was like "did you have sex?" and I'm like..-_____- No. haha. I just got it like..RIGHT NOW! Good thing I didn't leak. lawl. TMI? Probably.

10. And right this second, I just learned that a schoolmate (because I've never talked to him before or met him) just...well, my troubles are extremely less significant than his. Hell, they aren't even considered troubles in comparison! Well, not that they should be compared anyway.. =/ I really feel for him though. My condolences.